Koki Tomlinson
Articles:

to be "Someone"

Feb. 22nd, 2024

I've spent much of my life trying to be someone. Someone I think other people want because I assume they don't want me.

I am not sure what the answer is, but I am sure I do not want to continue as I have been. Reaching a goal while being inauthentic to myself brought suffering, doubt, and shame because I couldn't appreciate it.

I will not live like this anymore, so I am trying a different hypothesis for life.

I am letting go of being someone.

It feels terrifying, like dangling from a cliff by a rope and convincing myself that letting go will save me. I am scared, but I will move forward.

See you out there.